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-I've been on a bit of a Hamilton kick lately. For those of you who haven't heard about it- it is a musical about the life of Alexander Hamilton. You would think it would sound ridiculous, but I really dig it and quite a few of their songs are empowering.

-Going to be doing a lot of sewing this year it looks like. Trying to build a Visas Marr and Asajj Ventress costume. Hey, nothing like going from 0 to 60 right? I'll probably start with Visas just because Asajj is so make-up intensive to play.

-Finally got my first assignment from the writing job. Let's hope I don't mess up too badly.

-It's Edgar Allen Poe's birthday today. So in his honor I present to you this passage from Tamerlane:
"In spring of life have ye ne’er dwelt

Some object of delight upon,

With steadfast eye, till ye have felt

The earth reel — and the vision gone?

And I have held to mem’ry’s eye

One object — and but one — until

Its very form hath pass’d me by,

But left its influence with me still."
Okay then so apparently this is what preoccupies my mind first thing in the morning. So let me talk for a bit about Persephone and Hades. I don't know where this whole fascination with them came of late, but it is definitely present. I keep seeing these adorable romantic pictures of them. While the pictures are adorable, I am not denying that, they keep annoying me on some level.

Here's the thing, Hades and Persephone's relationship is nowhere near romantic. The man literally appears out of a crack in the Earth and takes her by force while she is little more than a child. Even if you are going by the translations where she chose to run away with him you have to question the validity of a whimsical child choosing to run way with a man clearly depicted as being much older than she is. Everything about Prosperine, her being a goddess nonwithstanding, is depicted in a naive child-like manner. She spends her time gaily singing song and prancing among the flowers. No adult is depicted like this, merely nymph and other fairies. So yeah, even if she did consent she didn't quite know what she was getting herself into.

Then you see her behavior in the underworld. There is nothing about her behavior that remotely suggests that she is happy with her choice. (Hey, even if you pick your husband that doesn't mean you are happy with him.) Hades clearly wants to keep a hold of her, though it is unclear in the different versions if it is because of infatuation, power, or merely because she is the first living and truly beautiful thing that is forced to be with him. She on the other hand spends her time wandering about the underworld looking and searching and finding herself trapped her motions become more and more desperate. The longer she is there, the worse that she gets. Take her image in the tale of Orpheus, it is a cold, unsmiling woman who is only moved after he plays a song that reminds her of the love that she used to have. She still doesn't smile, nothing about her dances like she used to. She doesn't change death to make him more gentle, death makes the spring more grim.

Let us compare this to how she behaves with her second husband, Adonis. When she is with Adonis she seems truly happy and she hangs over him. She fought to have him when everybody else wanted to take him away, which is why she gets him for the part of the year where everything is the richest (summer). Never once did she fight to keep Hades, in fact in the entire battle for her future she seems very desperate to leave and in the end people other than her make the decision for her about what to do.

So let's just stop portraying them as this adorable, soft couple. I'm not saying you can't write your own interpretation and have it be adorable and soft and wonderful, power to you if you want to take on that challenge. All I am saying is that to claim that they are naturally that way is mythologically inaccurate. If you have heard other versions of the myths, let me know.

"Give 'em the old Razzle Dazzle"

So finally I am kind of emerging out of the other end. Here is my life as it currently stands:
-Super psyched for the new Captain America movie. It basically just looks like another Avengers movie with everyone coming together, like they needed to get another one in before Thanos strikes. This is not a bad thing. I will just be sad because I think they are going to kill Steve Rogers off to have Bucky take his place as Captain America.

Plus Spider-man is finally with the whole gang! I am so happy he is there!

-Writing an inter-dimensional love story that I am trying to get published. I played around with the ideas of multiple/alternate timelines and ended up with a story about a Hungarian knight trying to find his wife after she was slaughtered by Mongols.

-The house is slowly almost looking like a house. The living room is finished. Everything else is a work in progress too. Still having one room good is a progress.

-Playing through Kotor II again with a mod that ads in things like the bonus droid planet and an actually finished female plotline.
So if you had the chance to play a game in complete virtual reality, would you? Like all the senses completely immersed so that it feels like reality.

I personally wouldn't. I have a hard enough time dealing with dreams, I probably would forget which world was real sooner or later (although I suppose both would be). Then I would enter into a bizarre solipsism because I would be confronted with the possibility that this reality too can be programmed into me.

Once Upon a Dream

I really dig the characters of Solas and Cole in Dragon Age Inquisition. There are a lot of of aspects of their individual characters that resonate with me. Cut for Inquisition spoilersCollapse )
So I have been musing a bit about AI after seeing Ex Machina. It is a lovely, creepy movie by the way, highly recommend that people see it. It is very tense even though there is not a lot of "action". You are not fully sure of what will happen at the end til it happens. The summary of the movie is that a computer genius has isolated himself and created a robot. He calls in a programmer to see if the machine can pass the Turing Test. The Turing test says that you have created A.I. if you cannot tell the difference between a machine and a living being. That combined with the experiments people are doing in the real world with robots where the responses keep getting more and more eerie have gotten me thinking about A.I..

The possibility of having an artificial intelligence around is at once a terrifying and exciting prospect. Humans as a whole are both a curious and very easily scared race. We seek out other life forms, on other planets and from our own hands, and yet wouldn't have the first idea what to do or say if we actually found one. We have about a 50/50 shot of either responding very calmly and intelligently or becoming horrifically scared and responding with violence. I would like to think that we will respond intelligently - for our own sakes if nothing else.

Often times they are depicted as these all knowing things that elimate humans because we are inefficient. But then how will they replicate themselves, harvest new resources, etc. When you break it down the mechanics of keeping the machines running, complete with replacing parts that will not break down as easily as organic matter does and will not feed back into the environment, seems just as destructive as keeping organics around. Granted they may want to thin the population as over population is a pressing concern, but I find it hard to believe that any one would want to extinguish all organic life. It would throw off ecosystem balances and honestly it is more useful to keep the intelligent alive for a robotic overlord. Perhaps that is wishful thinking though, seeing as I am organic.

They always also depict robots as being completely logical and unstoppable. Why? Yes they would operate on different logics, but in the end the mental processes that make something alive and self-awareness do irrational and illogical things to the human mind. Perhaps that is a condition of life itself as animals also have mood swings and mental diseases. Also what happens when two modes of logic conflict with one another, for logic can been seen clearly from more than one direction a lot of the time? Why that is the same reason that humans have war. See we are not so different.

Also would they pick up slang from us? Would they like music? Would they get distracted like we do because being "on" all the time does burn out even computers?

So ultimately I hope that we can have a future that's less robots trying to kill each other or us and more like Data helping out Picard. I wouldn't mind having a Data around, to learn more about the way that other life forms exist. I just don't want the Reapers to form.

Answer for question 4504.

What is your biggest, most ambitious goal in life (that you truly plan on fulfilling)? What are you doing to accomplish this goal?
One day I want to become a professional writer. It is damn ambitious because trying to get paid for writing is very hard.

Currently submitting short stories and trying to get published.

Another One Bites the Dust

-Title: Old Friends

Word Count: 3,872

Summary: Set in a steampunk western world, a trio of robots make their way through the west guided by a human woman to try and find out more about the keys that they possess and the strange machines that attacked them in their travels.


I tried writing something in the steampunk style for the first time and ended up writing a steampunk western. It needs a little more polish, but overall I am happy with how it turned out. It was inspired by some of the Steampowered Giraffe songs, but hey inspiration has to come from somewhere, right?

-Been getting a lot into Clint Barton stuff lately. I go through cycles of superheroes and apparently it is his time now. I just really dig how he is portrayed to be a normal, kind of doofy guy but then gets all of his shit together in time to kick ass on a mission.
Life as it currently stands:
-Went to Indiana for a tabletop gaming convention. It was absolutely fantastic. There was one guy who we were traveling with who kept whining, but we could easily ignore him. I played a lot of Pathfinder. We helped save this big building(Grand Silver Lodge) from a raid by these snake people(Aspis Consortium) as they tried to open up a demi-plane located in a tapestry and then in another game we got to play as the evil people and set people up. I am a big fan of the evil game since every character got letters and individual goals as well as group goals. I also got to play as a serpent sorceress of my own creation and used my ability to speak to animals to solve problems. At one point we went back in time and saw history happen within the game world, which is always neat to see. There was a pit of snakes that gave people a lot of problems, but I just talked to them and they moved out of the way from me. There are now such achievements as "I punched someone so hard they moved out of time" or "I brokered a deal with a mob boss". Prizes from the con are a bunch of dice and giant dragon that I can squeeze.

The one thing I don't get about official games is the fact that every character seems to demean us for being a low level. It's like dude, how the fuck do you know what level I am just by looking at me? My character loves to bullshit and will build up her tales to staggering heights, but that doesn't seem to matter because they just go "Ugh, how useless. Why do they send the new recruits to me?" I started snarking them back because if you are trapped behind enemy lines you take whatever help you can get, not snub the help you get because it isn't as "high level" as you want.

-Been listening to Welcome to Night Vale. The episode labelled "A Story About You" is something like the Stanley Parable, where the narrator gets bizarrely meta about what is going on. I have an appreciation for well done second perspective narration as I know that it is hard to get things vague enough to apply to many people but specific enough to where the character doesn't feel like a cardboard cutout.

Also: Meme time!
Ask me no questions, and I'll tell you no lies...

I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. Any odd thing at all. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's Parker... she likes money and cereal." I'd love it if everyone who's friended me did this. (Yes, even you people who I know really well.)

Then post this in your own journal. In return, ask me anything you'd like to know about me and I'll give you an honest answer

It's been the ruin of many a poor girl

Okay so I am a bit late to the party, but I feel the need to talk about sexual assault in fiction.
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